I have been in a coma, a writing coma. Uh, these past few weeks got me thinking of the things that I really wanted to do, things that I have done—bad things that I am not proud of, things that I SHOULD HAVE done and things that I could have done BETTER. I constantly evaluate my actions especially if someone’s in pain. I’m not really making any sense right now but I’m really troubled.
Have you ever had that feeling where you said to yourself that you will never feel this way or do this certain thing and then you ended up feeling/doing it anyway? I did. And I have this realization that I can’t plan my life ALONE. There’s always this greater power that will always guide me or steer me in that way even though I said that I don’t want it. But because it’s the best for us, He will always do things unexpectedly, beyond we can imagine.
I don’t know what to think of this crazy idea—if you can even call it that way—but I’m kind of happy and anxious about this whole thing that it makes me wonder what would happen if I give it a CHANCE? I’m not a risk taker. Never was. All I wanted to do now is to make sure that THIS IS REALLY WHAT I WANT and this will lead me to become a better person. All I know is that all these things are in God’s perfect timing. And the million dollar question is: Am I too late?
The ideal quote (perfect for my situation) that I read today was with Nestor Rasonabe’s tweet: God has perfect timing, never early and never late. And it takes a little patience and a lot of faith, but it’s worth the wait.